Name Game

I've lied, cheated and stolen. I've been told I was mean, stupid and cruel. The list of what I've done and what I've been called runs long, and for a good chunk of my life I lived these types of words because I believed I was their definition.

Sometimes you're not able to tell yourself "I love you" because you're swimming in the debris of your past, thinking you are "this" just because you've done that. Or thinking you are something somebody said you were, simply because they said it.

The first time I told myself "I love you" was in the mirror. I quietly mumbled the words, then, realized I was staring at the sink. I couldn't even look at my reflection as I said them, but the words still trickled out. It felt like the biggest lie I ever told.

The tears just keep coming. Each one felt like a tiny shard of glass shoving its way through the overcrowded corners of my eyes, as if they couldn't wait any longer to see the light.

The rejuvenation that came from finally giving myself a slice of cred cleared space for a small polka dot of peace to blossom.

One of the most freeing conclusions I've been guided to was the result of Self-Love and holding hands with my positive - I'm not the bad person I thought I was. I'm the good person I thought I wasn't.

If we're going to play the name game, if we're going to define ourselves, let's use words that wrap around us with Loving-Kindness.

Flow With Your Positive,

Jimmy